Dammit! I completely forgot how hard it is to stop smoking. Over the past couple of days, I’ve feel grumpy, happy, headachey; well pretty much all over the place. My emotions have been going crazy (mainly I’ve been feeling pretty low) but I still push on. I know I can do this.

I’m not using the patches this time, truth be told, they annoyed the heck out of me the first time, after a while they start to get really hot and then itch like crazy. I mean what the hell! Did someone just decide they were going to soak a nettle leaf in pure nicotine and then add some sticky to it? That’s what those awful hate patches felt like, so yeah, screw them, I dont need a constant itching to remind me that I want a damn smoke.

In other news, I’ve been a busy little bee, working on some new pics, I’ll get them up sometime before the weekend, I just have a few finishing touches I want to work on.

I’ve decided that today will be the day that I stop smoking.

I had managed this before, through the help of the NHS stop smoking clinic, and Nicorette Patches. I had quit for 6 whole months, however, one small car accident got me started again.

This time, I aim to do it under my own steam. I think that keeping track of my progress on the site will help me to talk through how I’m coping with it, and also hopefully help anyone else out there who wants to quit, see how it went for me.

My last smoke was just before midnight last night, I said my goodbyes, read a book and contemplated my choice. No going back now.

Day 1 is certainly going to be a bit rough, I’ve already skipped my “wake up” smoke, and I hate it. If I can get through a few days, I’m sure I’ll be fine. I can do this.

I just hope I don’t turn into one of those preachy bastards I hate so much, So if you run into me a year from now, and I start preaching about how much better your life would be if you quit, please feel free to slap me.